I'm so proud I voted. I'm so happy I have this ability to help make decisions.

I'm still really upset. I'm worried where this country will take us in the next four years. I pray he proves me wrong- that's all I can hope for. Hope, what an ironic word to use.

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Derek and I spent the entire day together yesterday. It was lovely. I thrive from the closeness we have- I don't have to try to be someone I'm not. I can just speak freely and it's really refreshing.

twenty days until our one year anniversary. It's odd to think about how far we've come. How much we've been though. I'm just really happy.

I wish my parents saw that- I wish my mother and I had a better relationship. We had another fight the other night. I'm tired of the same argument. I am the kid and I'm going to act accordingly. If I want to act out- I can act out. She can't. She is the adult. I feel like everything I do is wrong to her. I feel like the second she found out I was Pro McCain she decided to be hxc Obama. I just don't get it. I feel like she's headstrong in upsetting me. I don't really get it. I wish we would just resovle this mess. But at the same time- I don't know that I want to have this fake-happy relationship. It's just not worth it.