a place in this world

I was searching for a new facebook photo in my iphoto today when I stumbled upon videos of Derek and I in Devil's Lake. They cracked me up. It's just the way we act together. Not one clip was there silence or awkwardness. We were laughing, smiling, just being silly and that's the side nobody ever sees. Jessica and I talk about him from time to time and she's always like, "you mean, he laughs? He enjoys things?" Why yes he does, he's not a robot.

Nobody knows him like I know him.


I decided to check out that other video I shot at Devil's Lake of our campsite and our first day there. I ran out of battery like five minutes in because I accidently left it on in my backpack. Oops. I just feel like I haven't documented anything we've done in a long time. I want more pictures of us- not doing anything special just being us. I almost wish we had somebody to follow us around for a week and tape our lives. I just want to remember everything and I feel like I'm living to be forgotten. I want to scrap, I want to document. I want to make movies, I just never do.

Not just of him either, of everyone. I want more pictures with my friends.

I want to move out- get a buncha picture frames and decorate my empty apartment. I am so excited to get a place of my own.