stupid grey's anatomy.

I loathe "spring cleaning"

We're tearing the shop apart in preparation for our Open House on Tuesday. Every single square inch has to be spotless and even though our shop is only 1200 square feet- it's just a huge mess. We have stuffed ten pounds of shit in a five pound bag.

I scrubbed, I washed, I organized, I dusted, I scraped. And for eight hours- and another eight tomorrow. I can't wait for Tuesday. It'll be nice when it's all over. However- the second that's over- we have a large wedding to complete by Saturday. Ugh.

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You ever have those days where you just feel like you want to just cry. You just want to scream and punch a pillow and just bawl your eyes out? I just got that wave of emotion and I have no idea why. I've cried and It doesn't seem to let gow. I just need to cry. I couldn't tell ya why. I just want to cry.

And I want him to hold my while I cry, I want him to brush my hair out of my eyes and tell me it will be okay. I want that kiss on the forehead that says so much without saying anything at all.

I think I have that.
I really want to think I do.

I'm sure I do.

I think.