it's just one of those days....

I'm in one of those moods.

I haven't been "down" or "depressed" in a long time- nothing has really been able to get me down. I'm tired of being poor.

Not dirt poor- the kind of poor that people are suffering from all over the world. I just get really upset when my parents can't pay their bills.

I get upset knowing that I can't do anything about it to help. I can only keep track of my own expenses and needs no matter how expensive.


I'm worried about the cruise. I'm worried about insurance. I'm worried about tuition. I'm exhausted.

I just want to cry. I want to just curl up in a ball and well, bawl. I want Derek to tell me everything will be okay- and I know the second I go talk to him about it he's going to just say "stop" as in "stop worrying- just do what you need to do" it's the soldier in him- push every emotion aside and deal with it. quit bein' a wussy...

I wanna be a wussy. Really Bad.

*sigh*